Why Do I Feel Sad?
This one is far different from all my past entries. It actually took me a lot of courage to post an entry of such topic. But what the heck! This is my space and I’ll post whatever I want to. (Galit??? Opening remarks pa lang, nagsusungit na agad!)
Last week, a friend browsed my site and commented that he had fun reading some of my blog entries. Told him that I haven’t posted anything lately as I am not in my usual happy-blog-writing mood. When he asked why, I instantly replied, "I feel sad."
Telling a friend my melancholy state is kinda bizzare as I don’t usually confess things like these. Besides, I am known as this laugh-your-heart-out-girl-who-never-gets-tired-of-talking-all-day-long… so, I need to keep that crazy-for-all-season image! 🙂
And now, I’m telling to the whole world that I’m kinda sad. Yes, I don’t feel too well lately.
Of course, I have my share of sad moments in the past but I knew how to easily cope up with them. I would always keep myself busy in order not to entertain any thoughts of sadness. I also followed Tinkerbell’s advice to simply think of happy thoughts… parang Peter Pan ang dating! Yun nga lang, I don’t get to fly! 🙂
I can’t say that I’m leading a boring life because my life is getting better each day. My social life is currently active as I frequently go out with friends… from simple chum-moments-over-coffee sessions to all-night-long-dance-til-you-drop gimmicks. Yes, it keeps me happy and pre-occupied for a while but after an hour or two, for no reason at all, boredom would cloud me.
I tried a lot of things already to distract me from this weird state. I flipped my tons of Cosmo magazines to keep me hooked to reading various relationship and self-improvement articles. I re-hashed my iPod thrice and downloaded lots of songs from the net. I braved the Glorietta-sale and got myself some good finds. I drowned myself with Starbucks mocha frap… venti po, huh?! These are really the best-seller motivators for me… but nothing worked!
I am glad though to have spent some weekends with my nieces and nephews for they bring me much joy. I just wish I could spend all my time with them… but duh? I need to work!
I don’t think that work is the main cause of this sadness, boredom, gloominess, or however-which-way you want to call it. Work is fine alright and I have managed to deal with the ever-increasing pile on my desk.
I actually thought of 3 things that make me sad… let’s see if my theories are true:
(1) I think I am experiencing an Ally McBeal syndrome…. also known as "single-girl’s drama".
(2) I am missing someone so very badly… and he doesn’t even have a single clue!
(3) A pimple popped out on my nose. Darn, it really makes me feel ugly! 😦
Ewan ko lang ha! Feeling ko yung number 3 ang main cause ng aking kalungkutan! Haay… siguro derma lang ang solusyon dito!